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March 8th, 2007

The Part of You That No One Sees

You are passionate, romantic, and emotional.
You put love first in your life, even though you have often been disappointed by it.
You expect to be swept of your feet, and you never expect infatuation to die out.

Underneath it all, you are scared that you aren't lovable.
Your insecurity has ruined many relationships, as you are unable to see the love that's really there.
You are secretly afraid of being alone. Confronting your insecurities is incredibly painful.

February 14th, 2007



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Happy Valentine's Day to everyone! Love you guys!

January 30th, 2007


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December 24th, 2006

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Chances are I won't get on here again until tomorrow so I just wanted to wish everyone a MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

I love you all!

December 4th, 2006

Comment and I'll give you a letter; then you have to list 10 things you love that begin with that letter. After, post this in your journal, and give out some letters of your own. Let me know if you want a letter =).

Mandy gave me the letter N.

1. Napping!
2. No school (or work)
3. New York Rangers
4. New York Yankees
5. New York Giants
6. Noodle soup (chicken specifically)
7. Newborn babies (they're just soooo cute!)
8. Nice warm bed to snuggle in =)
9. Nice hot showers
10. Necklaces lol

November 22nd, 2006

turkey day

In case I don't get on here tomorrow I just wanted to wish everyone who reads this a HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!! Love you guys!

September 1st, 2006

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Lately it seems I'm on some sort of emotional roller coaster or something. One day I'm having the best day of my life and I couldn't be happier, and the next I'm having the worst day a person could have and I'm so emotionally down I don't know what to do. I hate feeling like this, and the bad days scare me most of all. I'm afraid to sink back into the way things used to be...I just can't admit that to anyone without a million questions and worries. It really does scare me though, and I just want it to end...I want to be happy and not be on such a roller coaster.

August 30th, 2006

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I feel like I try so hard, and sometimes I'm not so sure why. Last night I spilled to you exactly how I feel, and you seemed to really be responding to everything I was saying. It just seemed like you were so intent on making this work. And now, a little more than 12 hours later, I feel like you don't really care as much as I thought. It just seems like today you're not as into all of this as you once were. It feels like it's gone back to being all about you and what you want...just like it seems to be lately. I try so hard, and it seems like you never respond. You say that I have nothing to worry about and that I'm never losing you. You need to realize that the worse this gets and the longer this goes on, the harder things become on me and the more frustrated I get dealing with it all. You're not making it easy. You're sorry but you don't do anything to show it. Words are just words. Saying you're sorry and that you promise to try doesn't mean anything until I actually see it happen. Yet I don't think you're really set on making anything happen. You complain you're broke, but you don't do anything to try and change it. You know I'm slightly unhappy, but all you do is give some empty promises. I don't think I can wait around forever. I just want you to get serious about this for once, and just try to change things around. I know it's probably easier said than done, but it's still worth a try...

And as for others, I'm just as frustrated. It was sweet of you to call me the other day and apologize about the days before. But that doesn't exactly erase the way you've been making me feel. You claim you're not doing what I think you're doing, but reality is that you are and it seems you're afraid to admit it. To react the way you did a week ago is all the proof I need to see that what I thought would happen really is happening. It hurts to be treated this way. I don't want to be that girl. I was that girl once...it wasn't fun then, and it's not gonna be better now. I don't ask for a lot. I just want to hang out, talk, get to know you better. I thought that was what you wanted to...guess I was wrong with the way things have been lately. I was afraid of this, and now my nightmare seems to be coming true. Problem is, I won't do anything to stop it because that's who I am. It shouldn't be this hard...yet somehow it is.

And I think that's about all I have to say about that.

August 24th, 2006

my little rant

From time to time I wonder if anyone actually appreciates me. I just want someone who doesn't make me feel like shit. Someone who doesn't make me put forth everything and get almost nothing in return. I just want someone to consider me and my emotions for once. And more than anything I want a little respect from people. Is that too much to ask? I feel like some people just have this idea that I'll always be there for them no matter what happens. Well who's going to be there for me when I need them no matter what? Truth is, one day things are going to get so bad I actually won't be there...then what? I just don't know where to go with any of this anymore. Every time I say something, it doesn't seem to phase anyone. It's like it goes in one ear and out the other, as the saying goes. And I'm sick of that. I just want to be heard and understood. I just want you to consider how your actions affect me. Just seems that will never happen though.....

That's all.

August 18th, 2006


It's been a long time...

I went on vacation for a few days to Wildwood, which was a lot of fun. We had great weather, and Joe was down with his family the same week. It was really nice to get away from all the drama up north, and just spend quality time with him and family. That vacation was back in mid-July.

Since then I've been working, bowling, and taking a summer class. I took Western Civilizations II second half of the summer at community college. Only 2 nights a week for six weeks, and each class was about 2 hours long. It wasn't too bad because by the time I hated going to class, the class was over. It ended this past Wednesday, and I think I did pretty well.

Bowling is almost over for the summer. Fall league starts the same week as school if I'm not mistaken. Should be an interesting season with the team haha.

Work is work...nothing too exciting to report there. Then again, is work ever exciting? Haha. Beginning the 27th I'm taking 3 weeks vacation to get back into school mode. After that I'm only gonna work 2 days a week for 6 hours a day.

Speaking of school, we move in September 5th. Classes technically start the 6th, but since it's a Wednesday I have no classes. I think we're all about ready to move back in and have a change of pace. The apartment should be awesome.

On another note, I've been feeling pretty down about shit lately. I just feel like things are slowly slipping away, and I'm afraid that everything is going to come crashing down when I least expect it. Things just don't seem right lately. It's like a hopeless cycle of misery I put myself through, and it always involves boys. I'm not saying much for fear of it getting to the wrong people, or for judgement of others. I just wish I knew where everything stood with everyone and that I could get straight answers for once. I just wanna be happy and not worry about how things are going to turn out.

I think that's all I got for now. Bye!
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